Let the sunshine in!

An anwser to one of our friend's question about (our) plurality. Note that this is just our expierance with it, others may have diffrent expierances &/or exprianced them diffrent.

{reblogable in Tumblr from here on our plurality blog abyss-in-cahoots}

So we were intressted in plurality from a young age. We didn't know the words for it, let alone that it was that which we were intressted in. But ever since we knew of Jekyll & Hyde stories, we were intressted in "what if they were more morally complex?". Yes this often ended up looking like making Jekyll the bad guy while Hyde was good. But often as well were stories we made where they were both hurting, both needing of help and acceptance.

There were stories which didn't intend to portray plurality, even outright said it wasn't about it. But in a world where multiple people in the same body is usually treated like a horror story; stories like Sanders Sides & Inside Out, where such a thing was treated neutrally if not positively? They felt like a breath of fresh air we didn't understand we needed.

Though we only discovered that we were a system properly after we became adults. There was a server were we where, for the first time in our lives, knowlingly interacted with a system. It made us realize that plurality could be, real, happening to people who did jobs and school and had friends and things they enjoyed.

Yes we knew of D.I.D. before-hand, but it felt far away, only a thing that distressed, discribed in ways that could NEVER apply to us. But here they were, plural system after plural system (cause we've found out that like queers, plural systems draw eachother out), whom just, existed, who could feel more then suffering, who lived.

When some of our headmates interalized this, they demanded to be known.

Now, this distressted the then host Henry a lot. Mostly because he didn't want to fakeclaim. But also because he was afraid of being crazy, of being incapable of knowing what was happening in his head. But as we realized across our time accepting ourselves: to seek out help is to self-diagnose in the first place. That people will find reasoning after reasoning to be cruel regardless. We needed to be reconized as ourselves to some degree, cause it was hurting us to deny it.